Sometimes i am so afraid of having a boyfriend, not because i think that being single is a treasure but because of whatever unhappiness we'd have to go through in a relationship. What if the person you thought was meant for you, turned out to be just another infatuation? What if he or she isnt happy with who you really are although he or she continues to give you his or her best? Would you think you werent doing enough? Would you think you werent doing your best as a girlfriend or boyfriend?

What has gone into me? I tried to be okay and i tried to be how i am when im happy. But i only felt more rejected by you. I guess you were somehow or rather affected by my words, and for that i cant blame you. I tried to make things better by being myself, talking and laughing. Looking at you, just like how i always do but still i felt like i wasnt wanted.

It is hard to be my boyfriend isnt it? I know.. I dont understand why either..

Im sorry if i seemingly turned cold tonight. I promised to love you no matter who you are or what you do, so i cannot judge. Nothing that you do would change who you really are and thats why i love you. Id support you in any way but please do not give up on yourself. Smoking for example. When you tell you wanna quit, go all out to do so.. If you cant do it, do let me know..

Today is so not my day.

Sometimes i am so afraid of having a boyfriend, not because i think that being single is a treasure but because of whatever unhappiness we'd have to go through in a relationship. What if the person you thought was meant for you, turned out to be just another infatuation? What if he or she isnt happy with who you really are although he or she continues to give you his or her best? Would you think you werent doing enough? Would you think you werent doing your best as a girlfriend or boyfriend?

What has gone into me? I tried to be okay and i tried to be how i am when im happy. But i only felt more rejected by you. I guess you were somehow or rather affected by my words, and for that i cant blame you. I tried to make things better by being myself, talking and laughing. Looking at you, just like how i always do but still i felt like i wasnt wanted.

It is hard to be my boyfriend isnt it? I know.. I dont understand why either..

Im sorry if i seemingly turned cold tonight. I promised to love you no matter who you are or what you do, so i cannot judge. Nothing that you do would change who you really are and thats why i love you. Id support you in any way but please do not give up on yourself. Smoking for example. When you tell you wanna quit, go all out to do so.. If you cant do it, do let me know..

Today is so not my day.